How am I spend my week off from class? Sick, with a nasty little cold, that’s how. So instead of enjoying this week of freedom and gorgeous Autumnal weather I’ve been stuck indoors feeling sorry for myself. To make matters worse I had been ill with another cold not two weeks ago, so I was feeling pretty sorry for my self!
As I was wallowing in my little pity-party it occurred to me that I am at least partially to blame for my sickness, I’ve spent the last month running around like a maniac, trying to balance uni and work and a social life.
I put my hand up to do extra shifts over Easter (hello, public holiday rates!), diligently kept up with all of my social obligations (darling, it’s been so long since I’ve seen you, won’t you come to lunch with me? At which point I always feel obligated to say yes) and somewhere in the midst of things forgot about the most important thing in my life.
It’s not my Masters course, and its not making sure I’m a stellar employee on the weekends, its ME. I’ve stopped looking out for me. Sure, I look our for physical me (showering, eating well), but I’ve neglected emotional and spiritual me and for that, I’m sorry. Emotional me needs to regularly check out from the world and just be. Whether that be curled up with a book or exploring a new cafe, emotional me needs time away from all obligations to be happy.
As soon as I realized that, I stepped away from my homework, and spent the rest of the day doing things I enjoy, things I wanted to do instead of needed to do. I got stuck into a book, had a bubble bath and went shopping.
Whether we realize it or not, we all need to take time out, every single day. You don’t have to call it self-care, but you do need to do it. Obligations will always exist, but it is okay to step away from them, even for a short while.
As for me, I really appreciated the break from my homework. The perfectionist in me is going to have to be okay with an average assignment grade, because well, there are more important things in life than great grades!